Living my story created underlying beliefs of ‘not being good enough, the world is a dangerous place and feelings of unworthiness’. In my adulthood, I related with others from my programmed behaviour of family dysfunction and emotional disconnect. I perfected socially acceptable avoidance strategies: had an addiction to hard work, need to fix others & an irrational urge to take responsibility for everyone else’s happiness. 

 

Despite any ambition to change and succeed, my low self-worth kept me playing small. I was trapped in the unresolved grief of a loveless childhood. Unresolved childhood trauma created an emotional storm in my mind and body, it was impossible to hide. The repetitive cycles of bewilderment, confusion and conflict became clear emotional road signs, I was holding me back. I had lost all contact with my heart felt sense of who I was and faced the possibility I maybe never had a grasp on me to begin with. 

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I was always terrified of my vulnerability...

My situation and story changed the moment I took full ownership of my mess, and my emotional dependency to drama and hormonal addiction to stress!